New life ahead

i'm back again.

2011-04-17T19:08:00.002+08:00

hey :) for the most of you guys who's close to me you know that i'm in PERTH right now and for those of you who doesnt know that i am here in AUSTRALIA already. that's if you care. hahaha. well. i just went to the city this afternoon and boy was i tired. i need to rest though. well this is just to tell you that i'm back and i'll update my blog again later with pictures and everything. well my friends want to see the pictures :) well gtg for now. i'm going fishing :D

sedar diri sikit la weih

2010-11-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

Eh. Tlg la. Klau stakat korg nak comment aku maki maki kat blog ni takyah kecoh ah. Konon anonnymous sume org pun boleh buat. Jgn nak jd bodoh sgt la. Klau berani tulis ah nama. Kita jumpa dpn2. Bodoh punya manusia.

leave it be

2010-10-25T18:19:00.002+08:00

this is the last i guess. well what can i say ? it's gone. it's over. he left me. thats it. fullstop. my heart hurts. it aches and i really cant take it. i need him. i want him. i love him. but all of that means nothing anymore. he's gone. leave me hanging here. well there's nothing i can do. i guess. so back to my old life where i play around and smile when i dont really mean to smile. back to my unhappy and fake life. thank you for everything. i'll cherish all your memory with me everyday. i will wait for you. no point of taking my life anyway. tried to hurt myself but it didnt work out. i'm still here. still feeling hurt. i love you muhamad taufik. i will always do.

Damn !!

2010-10-13T03:27:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry. I dont get it. Why do I forget about my blog constantly ? Hahahaha. I guess I'm too busy arranging my life that I forget everything that is right in front of my eyes. I'm really sorry. Well maybe one of those reasons is that my life has nothing more interesting thing that happen accept for the fact that I still have my Muhamad Taufik with me.

With him always there for me, I dont think I need to write that much. My life is not interesting.

Baby bear. We're gonna celebrate our 3rd anniversary soon. heh heh. Well eventhough my friends keep on acting weird when I could be with you for a long time when all my other relationship never seemed to work before. No matter what they say I will love you more and more everyday. I just love you soooo much. You're such a doll. I miss you dear. Can't wait to meet with you soon :D see yah my dearest beloved darling. \(^o^)/ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Teddy Bear Bear !!

2010-09-27T19:54:00.003+08:00

I really love him. I really do. eventhough what I do for him I never think it's enough but he's the only person who could captivate my heart. I really treasure him. I only want him now and no one else. Baby, I need you. I love you my love my darling. mmmuuuaaaahhhh.

JOHOR BAHRU !!

2010-09-24T15:07:00.002+08:00

What do you think of JB ? Well for a minute I thought that it would be more like KL but further. When I'm there I guess I'm wrong. It's TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Damn but I think it's okay though. There's nothing that can stop me from going there cause the love of my life is there. My dearest MUHAMAD TAUFIK ABDULLAH is there !!! Weeeeeeeee. I LOVE IT and I LOVE HIM !! For the date that we didn't get on our anniversary. I would sacrifice anything just to have him by my side. Heh. I guess I'm really in love huh :)

This is for ziera if she reads it though.

2010-09-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

Zie, I do understand everything that you try to say.
Well why wont I get it ? I've been friends with you ever since primary school right ?
It's longer than our friendship with other people. We know each other's life more than other people. I'm sorry that I didnt ask about your life anymore or what you are going through.

I love you zie :) you're still my bestfriend no matter. I dont really want all the stupid fights that we use to have comes between us and throw away the relationship that we have.

Lets try and make up for the loss memories that we threw just because of some idiot guy and make up for it okay ? :D What do you say ? agree ?

Panic Attack

2010-09-06T20:35:00.001+08:00

Well well. I'm currently having a panic attack. Wanna know why ? Well thats my BIG secret. not telling you guys anything. Just letting you guys know that I'm having a panic attack.

raya raya raya

2010-09-06T04:05:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG !! raya dah nak dekat weih. yeay yeay !! ckp je nak raya padahal puasa pun tak ayumie ni. apa la kan ? hahaha. ada la puasa ada jugak tinggal. hahaha. alah. i'm feeling this happy pun because of the duit raya and the date I'm gonna get !! heh heh. nanti kat kelantan dapat jumpa taufik !! happy gila. siapa je dapat date jauh jauh ? tak pernah kut. susah gila nak jumpa dia unless I pegi JB or dia dtg KL. gila bosan kan ? nak try jugak date kat tempat lain. hahaaha. lets hope dapat la nak jumpa dia kat sana :D I love you baby. eeeemmmmpppphhhhh. huggie huggie.

Tired

2010-09-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

What am I waiting for ? What am I trying to prove to myself ? Try to prove that I can be strong ? Try to prove that I can do better ? I can make my heart stronger ? I dont know. Maybe I'm just lying to myself. For better or for worse I try to be the one for you. I try to make you happy with me. I try and try to make things better. Maybe I'll win but I know for sure that I'll lose no matter what. So the BIG question is how long can I hold on ? Lets see how it goes then.

New new word for independent day !!

2010-08-31T02:43:00.000+08:00

Bongol :D
Ada cara nak ckp ayat ni tau
Only haiqal,alip and zaid tau mcmana nak sebut. hahaha.

My Super Mario Buncit

2010-08-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

I miss your laughs
I miss your kiss
I miss your touch
I miss your jokes
I miss your tenderness
I miss your warmness
I miss your smile
I miss everything about you
And most of all, I miss you baby >.<

STUPID FOOL !!

2010-08-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

Apa la bangang sgt budak perempuan ni ? Org dah awal awal dah sound bgtau yg that dude tu PENIPU !! paham tak ? Guna la otak kau sikit. mamat tu suka mainkan perasaan perempuan. Tukar perempuan mcm tuka spender. ada paham tak ? ni tak. nak start over pulak. wth ? mcm kebangangan sgt je kau ni. haih. susah nak ckp ngn org tak paham bahasa. suka hati kau la nak buat apa. penat nak warning dah. nanti patah hati padan la muka kau tu. takleh nak buat apa lagi.

I LOVE YOU

2010-08-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

ALWAYS. weeeee :D

Picture Perfect

2010-08-27T05:51:00.002+08:00

Dont you know that nobody else is better than you ? You are the perfect person for me baby. I pretty much guess that you guys dont know why i'm saying this right ? So here's the story goes. It was around 3 a.m. We were chatting with each other on YM.

Taufik: yangg, b dah ngantuk ni. jom kita tido.

Ayumie:alaaaaaa. b nak tido dah ke ? :((

Taufik:jom la kita tido eh syg ? syg nak tido ngn b kan ?

Ayumie:nak nak !! syg nak call b kejap boleh ?

Taufik:boleh syg

I wanted to to the supersavers from maxis but i couldn't. Some technical problem occur at that moment. I was thinking what the hell so I just went ahead and call him.

Ayumie:baby baby. ngantuk sgt ke ?

Taufik:haah syg. jom la kita tido eh ?

Ayumie:but syg tak ngantuk lagi la b. meh la teman syg

Taufik:jgn la mcm ni syg. tlg la. pls. b ngantuk sgt ni.

Ayumie:b tido la dulu klau ngantuk. jgn la ckp ngn i mcm tu. mcm i jahat sgt tak kasi you tido pulak.

Taufik:tak tak syg. I'm sorry. i bukan maksud nak ckp mcm tu.

Ayumie:"silence"

Taufik:sayangg

Ayumie:hm ? apa ? b nak tido pegi la.

Taufik:syg. jgn la ckp mcm tu. b tak maksud mcm tu pun.

Ayumie:"silence"

Taufik:b tido dulu la syg. I'm sory. love you. bye. (close the line)

Ayumie:b ?

I wasn't satisfied with that. I didn't want to get mad at him in the first place. So I called him again. No answer from him. I called for the second time. Still no answer from him. I decide to give a text message.

Ayumie:B. Jgn mcm ni. Angkat pls.

I called again. Still not picking up my calls :'( I was like 'DAMN !!' So I text him again.

Ayumie:Fine. Tape la. Takyah angkat. I tau I jahat. Sory okay that you're stuck in a relationship with me. Takecare. Bye. Love you.

I didnt want to think about it so I left my phone in my room and watch anime at my pc. After half an hour, he texted me.

Taufik:I'm sory

I went to check my phone after 15 mins later. While I was reading his first text, then came the second one.

Taufik: I tau apa I buat kat you xcukup. I xpandai nak appreciate you. xpandai nak buat you happy. I try. I try buat you happy dgn i. Buat apa you nak. I tapenah fikir you jahat pun. Sumpah tapenah. I tau you syg i sgt care about me. nak I sgt. So do I. Maybe you tatau. But i syg you ayumie. Sumpah I syg you. Tp I keep on buat you sedih buat you susah hati sakit hati dgn I. Kdg2 I selalu fikir. I teruk sgt kat you. I tak dapat buat you happy. I xlayak dgn you. Tp. Deep in my heart. Ada nama you. I'm sorry for everything. Ayumie. you baby boo I. I love you syg.

My heart sank when I read the text message. I cried. I literally cried. I called him and settle everything once and for all.

To my dearest Muhamad Taufik Abdullah, I love you baby. I'm sorry that we always gets into a fight even though it's only a small problem. I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect person in this world but you are the right person for me baby. No one is better than you and trust me that no one is above you in my heart. Nobody can replace you. I feel blessed by god that I have you by my side every step of the way. You are the only person that I want that could guide my way wherever I go or whatever I do. I only want you b. I'm really sorry for everything. I dah try to make you happy baby. Tried to put aside my hatred and tolerate with everything with you. I even put aside my jealousy. Trust me b. I try that all the time when I'm with you. Tried to accept everything with open arms. I wont leave by your side baby :)) I heart you.

p/s : I dont really remember the real word that we talk on the phone about and I did cut this story short.

This is MY SAITO COLLEGE NIGGA'S

2010-08-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

The first picture is Hrishi, the emo one. Then, its Leo, the one who always gets bullied by everyone. Dzulhafeez, the oldschool B-Boy !! Ad Din, the crazy one. And the last picture, (from left) Avinaash, the macho one, eric, the popper :)), Jerry, the ID senior and Noel, the unknown. hahaha. Part of this group is 550 crew. The dance crew in our college. I LOVE THEM !!! I hangs out with them everyday and i dont know what'll happen to me if they have graduate. arghhh !!!! I will miss you guys. Nash will be the first.

Cant WAIT !!!!

2010-08-26T04:32:00.000+08:00

Hoyeah yeah yeah !! Can't wait for my second anniversary to come soon !!! I want to make it a perfect anniversary but but I dont think he's gonna be here in KL :'( I can spend time with him but I dont think it's gonna be as long as the time that we use to have last time :( Dammit !! Kenapa la malang gila nasib aku ni ? Ada bf pun susah nak spend time. Apa lagi ayumie. pindah JB la. Senang kan kan ? hahaha.

Gila ah weih. nak ckp mmg la senang. but nak buat tu susah. Tu la. Mama pun dah suruh kahwin. hahahaaha. B kahwin la jom !!! Mama dah bg greenlight. hahahah. Maybe la. Duit pun tade. hahaha. Plus b mana kasi syg jumpa ibu kan ? hahaha.

I'm fat la !!!!!!

2010-08-26T02:10:00.001+08:00

oh oh baju kurung ni ketat nak mati !!!! AKU DAH GEMUK LA WEIH !!!!!!! mcm ni taufik ckp cantik ? APAKAH ? hahahaha. mcmana la dia boleh nak syg si gemuk ni ? hahahaha. buta ke apa ? hahaha. tape tape. I LOVE YOU BABY !! Thank you for accepting me just the way I am. hoyeah hoyeah !!

Nurul Hazirah Abdul Halim

2010-08-25T04:53:00.000+08:00

First of all, aku rindu gila babi kat minah ni tau tak ? mana la minah ni pegi !!!!! weih. jumpa lah aku do. lama tak jumpa kau. hahahahahaa.

nak hangout tak ? yeah yeah !! nanti aku ajak kau jumpa bf aku skali :)) rinduuuuuu do. meh la kita jumpa nanti. okay okay ?

SUGAR POP HONEY :))

2010-08-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

Well here I would like to introduce to you my dearest Muhamad Taufik Abdullah. I'm currently with him right now. This is the person i would love to spend my time and life with. I really really love him so so much. He is my pride and joy, the person whom cherish me all the time. Who is always by my side whenever i need him and for god sake i need him alot than i can imagine.

From the first time I met him, I knew that he was the one who is destined to be with me. I met him at KLCC entrance. We didnt really know each other that time. I went to have a smoke actually at that moment from work. Then I went to have a sit beside him since there is a huge space beside him at that time. Actually it occur to me to talk to him. It was god will. heh. I love him from the bottom of my heart. I really really do. AND now its gonna be our 2nd anniversary soon. I want him now. I miss him. Come back baby. I MISS YOU :D

MTV world stage rocks !!

2009-08-17T02:02:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD !! Tyson was awesome. i mean it. i never really thought i would have so much fun at a gig but i really did. hahaha. i met all my friends. new and old. even my schoolmates too. it was pretty awesome when u get a free PLATINUM ticket and an invitation for the POST PARTY !! hahaha. everythg went great but unfortunately my handphones battery went empty. pity me. i didnt get to take picture with tyson and the whole party and concert. hm -.- next time remind me to charge it and if i must, i'll bring along the charger as well. hahahaha. i so love my brother. 'abg, nnt bg lg the ticket tau. thanks thanks. and sory sebab menghilangkan diri. too excited and rmai sgt kwn nak jmpe. so sorry bout that tau.' well. i wish i'll have the opportunity to have fun like that again. hahahaha. i wish. :P

CHINI here i come !

2009-06-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

holiday holiday people. tak dapat pegi langkawi, pegi pahang pun jadi ah. i miss my atuk !! want to meet him. :P going to drive drive. bye bye

ayumie anonie :)

happy and sad

2009-06-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

hahaha. i know u guess that i'm kinda emo everytime i write my blog. well what can i do ? everytime i'm online, it is always when i'm having a really really bad day. but but. today i'm happy ! yay ! syah masuk my school. after i tried to convince him last month to transfer into my school. at last i saw him yest. in my school ! gila la kan ? i was soooooooooooooooo happy. sayang syah. lucky la he listened to my advice kan kan ? hahaa.

the saddest thing that happened to me this week was i lost my dearest hp. haih. sape la yang suka suka amik my hp ? dorg tade keje ke amik org lain punya hp ? gila mcm pukimak shit !! hahaha. tp tape. daddy nak belikan blackberry storm. so sape kisah kan ? hahaha. hmmmmm. i fought with ash kut today. psl our friendship, my family and our community. tah pape tah. i rase mcm budak kecik je gado gado nie. hahaha. i'm out from JOVIAL now. nak study la. nak masuk community nie nanti nanti la. i have my spm to worry about. shit ! chemistry punya peka tak siap lagi. haiyo. keje lg. i have to go now. heh. nak siapkan. so tata :)

i'll be living with daddy !!

2009-06-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

yay yay ! i get to live with daddy this time. heh. saje je buat buat hal so that i dapat duduk with my dad. hahahahahaha. i'm evil right ? 'i dont care. all i know u have to live with daddy lepas nie.' thats what abang alef said. i was like 'HOYEAH'. hahahahaha. but i didnt really show anybody my expression bout the moving in with dad thingi. what the heck. as long as i'm happy. yay yay ! so gonna enjoy my life now. hahaha. ape la jahat sgt aku nie buat sume tu. i mean i do like living with mama. its just that she's rarely even at home. so i was always left alone at home. do u know how boring it is to stay alone at home ? klau ada kucing ke anjing ke best la jugak ow. nie takde pape pun. ada pun tv je. hahaha. tgk star movies je la everynight. hahahahahaha. i want a dog !! a husky. awww. COMEL GLE LA KUT ! so geram tengok dogs. i love dogs. dont get me wrong. i know all the agama thing but then i dont care. its still gods creature kan. it deserve to be loved kan ? well dah panjang la i tulis. nak stop. bye bye. penat dah nie. hahaha. love love xoxoxo.

hey :)

2009-06-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

hey hey. hello everyone. sorry for not updating with my blog. haha. at first i malas. but now i'm going to be active with my blog. yeah yeah !! i really miss writing here. hehe.

try me

2008-11-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

what do you think ? you knw its our problem and you just have to tell everybody right ? how nice of you. atleast everybody knows about it. yeah. that i'm a backstabber. i guess you cant accept the fact that he likes me right ? i know. its okay. i know its my fault that i tell him. you could atleast pretend that you care. well i do. you said it yourself that you dont want him. so whats wrong with me being with him ? its not like he's my bf or anythg ? come on. i'm not the one who tells you about him. you were the one who checks my hp and everythg. i care bout your feelings. thats why i put it somewhere that you cant read but you just HAVE to open all my stuff. you knew but you still want to hurt your own feelings right ? that was the messages weeks ago. i just want to keep it. i dont know. its your choice. i've tried to explain to you so many times you just wont listen. then fine. we'll see okay. have fun.

i'm sad today :(

2008-11-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

well as most of u guys dont know i broke up with my bf last two or three weeks. i was sad at the moment but i got back on my feet n met ths awesome guy. he's really really awesome n great. i cant reveal his name anyway. i dont want to hurt anybody by telling his name :) sorry. so back to my story. he's sweet, adorable, kind, always there for me and so on. too many good thgs bout him. so yeah. he said he love me and so do i. i love him. too much until theres no more love u can squeeze out of me. we had all ths romantic moments until yest he told me that he's not single anymore. i dont know what to do now. i'm confuse and blur. i feel like hating myself. but cant find the reason why i should do that. its okay. maybe she's way better. all i want to say is i still love him and i'll always do.

my family :D

2008-11-02T18:00:00.001+08:00

jama'uddin abu bakar is my dad. zurina zakaria is my mom. alef aizudden is my first brother. muhd. hafizudden is my second brother. and i'm the last one, my name is afif ayumie anonie :)

syed keyaan zishan

2008-10-27T21:06:00.000+08:00

syed keyaan zishan. he's only 3. i mean almost 3. hahaha. he's so clever. he's good in everythg he does. especially taking photograph n posing. hahaha. he's really really cute. awwwww. i love you zishan :D

Happy 20th birthday

2008-10-26T03:27:00.000+08:00

well this is alef aizudden jama'uddin. he's my brother. he has his own band called loudspeaker. he writes his own song and compose it by himself ( well with some of his friends help too) :) hahaha. he is really awesome. he's going to New York soon :( how sad. gonna miss him for three weeks. his birthday is today of course and he's enjoying it right now with some friends. cheers bro :D have fun and semoga panjang umur. i'll always love u no matter what.

seven years and still counting.

2008-10-25T02:54:00.000+08:00

see. she's my bestest friend ever. she really have been by my side for seven years. i love her. n she's the best. nurul hazirah, ayumie anonie loves u. hahaha :D

hey everybody :)

2008-10-25T02:22:00.000+08:00

hey hey. i'm new here in this blogspot. so i kinda need some help with all this stuff. at first i dont really think that i wanna join all this kinda thing. but i was inspired by my ex senior of smk seri hartamas. she use to write in blogspot, xanga, FLCKR n many more. she's was really good in photography, architecture n designs. even though i never really knw her. neither does my family. but after viewing her blogs. i gotta admit. she's really good. i mean really really amazing in what she does best. i wish she could be someone whom i look up too. hahaha. sorry bout my grammar. i'm not that good in my grammar. :p where was i ? hm. oyea. her name is sara aziz. she's 20 but she died a week ago after dealing with lung cancer, blood clot, spine problem and much much more. she even wrote her stories and it's really horrifies me. i really really wish i've knwn her sooner. but what can i do right ? god must have love her more. my dearest brother even wrote her a song. here it goes.

Ku tak pernah "mengenali"mu .,
Hanya namamu yang pernah ku dengar .,
Suaramu , Wajahmu , hanya sebentar .,

Dan hari ini , ku baca ceritamu ,.
Sedalam-dalamnya , Sehalus-halusnya
Kepedihanmu .. kau lalui dengan senyuman .,
dan bukan dengan tangisan ,.
walaupun kau tahu akhir ceritamu begini .,

Ia bagai mimpi ,
Mimpi terus dibawa ke pagi .,
Terus lagi ke senja hari ..
Lalu Embun pun menitis , Hilangmu dirasai .,
Ceritamu seribu erti ,.

Oh tuhan .,
Bahagiakan dirinya .,
Rintangan dan dugaan telah kau beri .,
Ceriakannya di sana ,.

Hanya ini yang mampu ku persembahkan .,
Hasil puisi hati dan petikan .,
Agar mereka tahu ceritamu bukan rekaan.,
Ku percaya .,
Aku , dia , dan juga mereka .,
Akan terus menyanjungmu hingga ke akhirnya .,

CERITAMU ..

songs and lyrics by : alef aizudden of Loudspeaker
dedicated to : Sara Aziz . Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat .

i hope u're happy there sara aziz. god bless u :)