leave it be

this is the last i guess. well what can i say ? it's gone. it's over. he left me. thats it. fullstop. my heart hurts. it aches and i really cant take it. i need him. i want him. i love him. but all of that means nothing anymore. he's gone. leave me hanging here. well there's nothing i can do. i guess. so back to my old life where i play around and smile when i dont really mean to smile. back to my unhappy and fake life. thank you for everything. i'll cherish all your memory with me everyday. i will wait for you. no point of taking my life anyway. tried to hurt myself but it didnt work out. i'm still here. still feeling hurt. i love you muhamad taufik. i will always do.